Breaking Point

Its about 4:00 here in Maui.
I am sorry i have not kept ya'll up to date.
so here goes..

Last week i hit my breaking point.
For those of you that don't know, i got a Staff Infection. It was REALLY REALLY BAD. i couldn't barly walk or get out of bed.
I got these lil bumps on my legs about two weeks ago.. not thinking anything of it, i just ignored it.. here in maui people get a lot of weird things that happen to their bodies.
So when i woke up last week and i couldn't even walk i knew i should probably go into the doctor.
So my wonderful mom made an appointment for me to go in last Tuesday.

I ended up being at the doctor for about 3 hours. They wouldn't accept my insurance and it was just a HUGE mess.
Then i spent another 2 hours running around Maui trying to find a pharmacy that would accept my insurence as well.

i left that doctors with a huge headache and an over 100 temp!


When you have a staph infection your soars are always pussing out. :( So you can about imagin my week last week!
And to ad to that it was thanksgiving.. i wasn't with my family, and i was out of my mind sick!
Stresses from outreach finally caught up with me getting everything ready... making sure i knew were some of my support was comming from and getting everything i need to survive on the trip.. it was the worst feeling i have ever felt.
i am on an island by myself.. 18 and no parents trying to prepare myself to leave america and go off to a foreign country with my body beat up and sick... i finally lost it on wednesday afternoon.
i was ready to get on the next flight home.
Thank god we got a 4 day weekend. That is exactly what i needed to clam down and it did.. i spent a good deal of time just catching up on sleep and making arrangments to get everything i needed before i leave in about a week..

i thought it was all good untill today!!!

i though i should just check with the office to see where my money for outreach is going..

lets just say i never knew what a real break down was untill i left that office!!

im 1,000 short

I would ask that you would just keep my in your prayers.. it seems to be one thing after another after another after another that keeps happening to me.

I am not sure why i am still in this finaical bust or why anything is happening to me right now!!

I know the god i serve didnt bring me out to maui to end up making me go home with out ful-filling my call here..

I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY A HUGE THANK YOU TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE SUPPORTED ME AND HAVE GIVEN TO THIS CAUSE TO REACH THIS WORLD FOR THE LOST!!!!

I KNOW IN THE END GODS JUSTICE WILL PREVAIL..


GodBless,
Ashley